I feel for you, having to go through so much disillusionment! My experience is related to yours in disappointment, but also very different. After years of happily attending church with good Christian people, I couldn't believe how easily they allowed themselves to be deceived by Trumpism. I struggled with feeling I had no place where I belonged. After the Lord helped me to accept their faith without judgmentalism, he moved us out through my husband (a long story, but it was totally unexpected!). Now we fellowship in an independent Evangelical church with few people who would ever vote for Trump. It's wonderful! There actually are some Evangelical Christians in this country who are not deceived by the lies of these very extreme conservatives!
I feel for you, having to go through so much disillusionment! My experience is related to yours in disappointment, but also very different. After years of happily attending church with good Christian people, I couldn't believe how easily they allowed themselves to be deceived by Trumpism. I struggled with feeling I had no place where I belonged. After the Lord helped me to accept their faith without judgmentalism, he moved us out through my husband (a long story, but it was totally unexpected!). Now we fellowship in an independent Evangelical church with few people who would ever vote for Trump. It's wonderful! There actually are some Evangelical Christians in this country who are not deceived by the lies of these very extreme conservatives!