We decided to come back here
in the ugliest time of year.
All was brown and wet and cold
and damp - not crisp as in autumn
But moldy, like a gas station deli sandwich
You left in your car door, half-eaten
In the backyard fecundity
A wasteland once gardened
Plants strewn around a stone path
Eroded into the ground
The homeowners ended their marriage
The kids went between houses
But the rabbits kept happily reproducing
Bouncing around the yard all together
Rabbit Family Reunion
It was their domain
Today it has been 6 years
Life and death
A family home
Trees cut down with cranes and axes
Trees planted and staked to stand straight in the wind
Their bark munched all winter
By the rabbits and squirrels
With whom we share this land
This hard land
This good land
This American land
The brown thick sandy dirt
Then a medical waste dump
Then postwar construction
Torn down burned down still standing
The dirt is thawing and coming alive again
In the ugly thick heavy snow
Mottled with animal urine and car tracks and smushed leaves
I see a worm
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I wrote this poem in March 2023 after living in our Minneapolis home for almost six years. We first saw this home in March of 2017 on a visit from California. The homeowners were a young couple with kids who had recently gone through a divorce. The home was built in the ‘50s and had experienced multiple fires and many owners, including one who built an intricate garden that had not been maintained. But as these things go, this was the one house in the neighborhood we could really afford. Now, it has become our family home. I know still it is not “ours,” but we share it with the world and all creation, including lots of rabbits and squirrels. And every “ugly” Minnesota spring, I’m reminded of how new life begins sometimes in unexpected or unsightly ways.
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Preparing for Bible study, I have the following questions. I brought this up last week but our Pastor's answer didn’t satisfy me. He, like you is a Luther Seminary grad. Perhaps as you go over the week’s readings you can she'd some light on my question.
Forgive me for interrupting, but why oh why is the Lectionary, using advent readings, Is7:10-14; Lk 21:21-33 during Lent? The Heb 10:4-10 is sort of Lentie ;) but more ecclesial. Psalm 45 is very Marian and advent.